Have you heard the song, “If I Had a Million Dollars?” by the Bare Naked Ladies? It is a song that talks about what they would do if they had a million dollars. Have you ever thought about having a million dollars? What would you do with it? Yea, I know, in today’s economy, a million dollars does not go as far as it used to. So, what if you have ten million dollars, what would you do? I know for me, it is easy to start thinking about what I would do with ten million dollars. I know for one thing, I would travel the world. There are many places that I would like to go and see, like Paris, Australia, Hawaii, the Great Wall of China, South Africa, and more. I think I could sit here for a while coming up with places that I would like to visit.

This list only includes the cool places I would like to visit. There is also a list of friends that I would love to visit. I think that list would be even longer than the places that I want to see. Lucky, some of the places I want to visit, I have friends to see, which makes the travel a double win!

For all the excitement of having the ten million dollars would bring, I start to worry about loosing the ten million dollars. What if I spend it all before I die? What would I do then? How would I get more money?

As crazy as getting the ten million dollars feels, the fear of loosing the ten million dollars seems more real. How many lottery winners have you heard about winning big and then shortly after, being back where they were before they won? Ok, I know the media only really cares about the winners that lost it all and we hardly hear about the winners who still have their money, but what if I am in the group that looses it all?

I know you are going to say that I am crazy for thinking about this, but to me, this is a real fear. It is a fear that I have been working with and slowly releasing. As I peel back the layers of the fear of loosing ten million dollars, I have found some worthiness issues about getting the ten million dollars to begin with.

So, what do I do? I sit with the fear and worthiness. I feel them in my body and breath them in and become as present as I can. As I become present, I realize that my fear and worthiness concerns come from outside me. They are reflections of outside influences and right now, they feel like a weight that I am carrying on my back.

As I begin to question, I ask what is this weight? It is your struggle. Is it really my struggle? No, but you took it on. Do I need to carry it? No. Can I let it go? Yes. Can I let it go now? Yes, but I have to stand up. At this point, I realize that I am bending over to carry the load and as I straighten up, I feel the weight slide off.

Now that the weight is gone, how do I feel about having ten million dollars? I feel really good. I feel that the ten million dollars would come into my life and not only allow me to travel, but also work to replenish itself through my travels. It definitely feels much better than my original view.

How would you feel about having ten million dollars? Sit with it for a while and let me know if you have any hesitation about having ten million dollars. If you would like to continue the conversation, let me know.